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Post by Thursday on Sept 23, 2010 20:41:13 GMT -5
Dear friends, I am writing this letter in government to stave off the boredom and to keep myself awake since I can't understand my professor anyway and I am extremely tired today which I will tell you all about. My beautiful Thursday got started a little earlier than I would have liked today. I was rudely awoken from a wonderfully deep sleep to the ear splitting shriek of our fire alarm going off at 3:30 AM this morning. So I got to stand outside in my pj's (luckily I was wearing a bra) with all the other drowsy inhabitants of Texan hall for a hour until we were allowed back into the building when of course I couldn't go back to sleep right away so I was quite exhausted this morning. While walking to class in my sleep deprived daze, I ran into David, a very nice guy in some of my nursing classes. We chatted on the way to class where he gallantly opened the doors for me and when finding out I hadn't printed off the notes he ran off and printed them for me. He's very sweet but unfortunately not the guy I'd like attention from. Sigh. But I'll take what I can get. In my skills lab we've been working on injections and I have to say that stabbing a razor, sharp , 2 inch needle into a dummy arm is a really great stress reliever. This week has gone by fast and I'm glad it's almost the weekend. Unfortunately I have three tests next week so it's going to be a study type of weekend if I can make myself study which I need to do desperately. After class today I took a blissful nap and then attended my CKI meeting. Today was RAINN Day (Rape Abuse Incest Nation Network) and as a community service project we wrote statistics and facts in chalk on the sidewalks all over campus to raise awareness. I had to get my car insurance policy redone since my mom forgot to pay the bill (shocker) but I was gratified to find out the insurance rates are much lower in San Angelo than in Austin. So it's like 40 bucks cheaper per month. There are some benefits to going to college in a small town I guess. That's all for now my friends. Hope everything is going well for everyone.
Love, Kaitlin
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Post by Friday on Sept 24, 2010 8:19:11 GMT -5
Dear my special someones, Today is Love Note Day!! So I'm taking this fantastic Friday to write you a love note. Because, well, let's face it. You are the sun in my day and the stars in my night. I know this love letter finds you early in your day, and for that, I am deeply sorry. I have plans with another man this weekend... So getting this out early was a priority. But do not fear, for you will always be my true love. Or enough with the sappy business... I was gonna try to write the whole thing sappy, but... I can't do it. I thought I did good just to get a paragraph. But as I mentioned, I'm going to see James this weekend. And I'm actually starting to get a little nervous, like I always do right before I see him. Which is stupid cuz I have no reason to be. It will be the same like it always is. We'll be friend's with benefits, a lot of benefits. But... I really don't care about that. I just wish there was an easy answer to everything, I wish there was an easy answer for love. But moving on. This week has been fairly awesome. I took my 1st O Chem Test, and made it my bitch! Which y'all saw on Facebook, but, I was so excited! I keep waiting for the grade to go up.. even though it was all free response and I took it on Wednesday so I know the grades won't be up yet. My math test is in a few short hours... I don't think it's going to go very well, I haven't been able to motivate myself to study at all. I think part of it has been James, but we'll see how it goes I guess. Much hasn't happened this week. Jordan and I have been hanging out... Oh! Jordan and I went to Halo last Saturday, which is basically a gay bar/club. And I actually had a lot of fun, witnessed my first drag show, which is slightly disturbing, and the guys are actually passable women, but there just.. like bigger proportioned. The only people I danced with were girls, all lesbian, but everyone knew I was off limits. It was really creepy though, one of the bartenders, was like blatantly staring at me all night, and that was just kinda weird. It was the like “I'm imagining you naked stare” with his arms crossed over his chest, leaning up against the wall.. Yeah... Creepy. Anyways... I guess that's it for this weekend. So I wish you all a Wonderful weekend, on this Friday, the best of all days! With all of my heart (gotta pick up the love note theme), Your One and Only P.S. I love you.
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Post by Monday on Sept 24, 2010 12:13:02 GMT -5
((love it! awesome letter, and i hope everything goes well this weekend! :-) ))
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Post by Monday on Sept 27, 2010 19:25:54 GMT -5
Hullo my darlings! (imagine a British accent there... why? because I can :-) )
So for my letter today, I've decided I want to be more on the thoughtful/serious side. And what I often think about, especially when I'm writing (which I did this weekend, yay!) is if I am making the write decision about school. Even that seems too... dramatic sounding. I don't know. It's just that sometimes I feel like I'm being a coward, that even though I really think I'm going to enjoy and be good at being a nurse, a big part of the reason I'm doing it is just because it's safer. Like if you honestly asked me right now what profession I would want, if I could pick anything in the world, it would be writing. Hands down. But the thing is, there are just too many factors involved with it and like I said before, it scares me. For example, I could find out I'm not good enough, or that I don't write well enough for fast enough to make a living writing novels. Or that maybe I only enjoy writing in my spare time and wouldn't like it as a job, with deadlines and word quotas and agents and all of that business. I always use work or school as an excuse for why I don't write that often but if writing was my job, would I work at it hours at a time for consecutive days? And another side of me also thinks that I'm over thinking this too much. I can still be a nurse and if I find that I am actually an honest to God writer later on, I can just take that up instead and nursing can be my back up. But then again, maybe I am right to worry. So often people get caught up in their daily lives with mortgages and husbands and children that they forget what they're really passionate about unless it's already a necessity like their job that puts food on the table. And I'm not saying that I don't want all of that stuff(especially the husband and the children) but I'm so scared that I'm going to forget what it is that I love so much now, this special amazing thing that has really brought us that much closer then we would have been without it: Writing. To sum things up, I know I would be happy as a nurse and it certainly would work well with the kind of lifestyle I want to have, but am I passing up something that I could be potentially great at and truly love for something that is safe and easy. Or am I just crazy? :-) I don't know, I need y'all's help on this one.
With all the Love and Gratitude in the World, Meghan
p.s. I have a special request to ask of Becca and that is too please make your letter really long this week (and possibly every week after). lol
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Post by Friday on Sept 27, 2010 19:43:55 GMT -5
((Meghan, I think it's very normal to worry, I worry about making the decision I am. The further I get into school, the more I wonder if I really want to do something so serious as Vet School. As far as the writing goes... Do NaNoWriMo this year. www.nanowrimo.org/ I loved doing it last year, but it does give you that time constraint and it's a taste of maybe what it would actually be like, without it being too serious. It's something you have to put a lot of thought in to. I think stick with nursing, and keep writing as a side hobby, until you are for sure that you want to make the change. play it safe. Hope this helps some.))
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Post by Thursday on Sept 27, 2010 20:37:45 GMT -5
((ditto. And coming from someone in nursing school, nursing is from an easy or safe choice))
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Post by Tuesday on Sept 28, 2010 21:58:34 GMT -5
Dear Everyone, It's that time of year again, where I get to enjoy the beautiful company of the tissue box. My allergies have decided to welcome me this year with a grand fanfare of sneezes and stuffy noses. Of course with the allergies comes my favorite part of fall, and that is the wonderful and deliriously refreshing cool weather. I love anytime of year that is not summer, and fall is by far one of the most beautiful times. AND maybe it's also because my birthday is in the fall haha. But yeah my week had been going pretty....well I wouldn't say bad, but it's also not one of the best weeks in the world. Had a quiz yesterday in economics which lo and behold I failed. Sometimes I really just want to say screw it to school and get a good paying job and just live on my own... But then reality sets in, and I know I can't let my goals drift away. Plus I would be disappointing a whole lot of people, and I feel like I've already been too much of a disappointment in the past to do that anymore. Anyways, I had a test today in government, which I'm sure probably went as swimmingly as that stupid quiz. But it was after the quiz that kinda made me feel both better and melancholy. I got to hang out with Matt today for the first time in months. I feel kinda bad that I blew him off this summer, but he assured me that he would've been too busy anyways. Plus this was one of my first summers that I actually enjoyed a lot, and for once didn't feel like an outsider. If I wanted to hang out with someone all I had to do was pick up a phone and plans were suddenly being flung to and fro. Anyways back to Matthew. So we spent the day at Blockhouse park and we did what we usually do when we see one another, we talk deep shit. I mean we really get into the deepest parts of our hearts and we just talk. He told me of his relationship issues (go figure) and also about his little niece that wasn't able to see the world. I have to admit, this part really made me sad and not to mention the fact that Matt invited me over to his house and Meredith, his older sister, was there. I didn't know what to say, so I just didn't mention anything. I wanted to say sorry to her, but at the same time I bet she's heard that so often this past month that she probably just doesn't want to hear it anymore. Anyways we spent an that hour chilling in the living room and making fun of Matt. I really like Matts family and they like me too, but probably cause I'm such a good influence on him lol. His mom was as sweet as ever, and doesn't get a lot of credit for her mom-ness. Anyways it was cool to be in the same room as matt and his sister, because I remember a day back in middle school (one of the few days where I didn't hate life....god I hated middle school with a passion)where his sister had to take him and I to the mall to see a movie for a project we were doing. And the car ride there was filled with hilarity...at least from my perspective. Sibling fights are always more fun to watch than they are to be in. But his sister was in high school then and even though she could've been snippy to me, she was pretty nice. My mom is always happy when parents like me or my brother, it makes her feel like she's done something right. And speaking of my mom....*sighs* well I just wish she'd stop harping on me, it's getting old and fast. I mean I know she means well, but I'm an adult and I still need to figure things out on my own. Sometimes I go to apartment websites and just think to myself "If I could get a better paying job, I could totally live on my own." But this is wishful thinking.....Ugh this letter seems so....Idk depressing?? hmmm need something witty to say...Oh by now (and no this isn't witty) I'm sure you all heard about the shooting at UT, yeah let's just say when I found out I, as usual, freaked out a bit. Not only do I know people there, but I was down there just last night. I drove by the stadium, went down some of the streets. I mean I know I'm over reacting and this wouldn't've happened but, I can't help but think it could've happened last night. I mean the guy was probably thinking about it just last night. It's a scary reality, and sometimes I think living in suburbia is almost like a dreamworld compared to the reality that is the world. I don't think I have anything witty for this letter. It's given me even more to think about.
Con amor y amistad,
Sara
( this tuesday could've been a bit more awesome.)
((OH and a thousand apologies for how long this letter is! I totally didn't mean for that to happen!!))
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Post by Wednesday on Sept 30, 2010 0:01:13 GMT -5
Howdy do Hows it going? haha, i guess i know since we are putting up these letters. so let me tell you how i've been . So i've been hanging out at my uncles place for the week so far which i've spent playing a wonderful game called fable 2. Amazing game, especailly since i haven't beaten it yet. I hate it when i can beat a game in just a day or two of full day playing. I've been playing for like 3 days straight pretty much. I want to finish it completely. on saturday I went up into the mountains with my uncles and drove this goat cart like thing, except it's really fast. I went over this bump in the road and nearly got launched out of it except that i was wearing the seat belt. (thank god) and then it died on me and someone had to come start it for me. I've been eating nice and good on this break. it's going to suck going to the dorm and eating noodles for a while again. it's not so bad though cause i like noodles. today my aunt needed help with some math homework and she paid me to do some of her passed homework assignments that she needed to catch up on. I'm taking math this coming quarter, should be fun. i got to talk with tim and his mom today, it was pretty awesome. we are going to see his parents for christmas and we are going to get to stay in the hunters cabin all by are lonesomes. it should be fun. hehe. i'm excited to meet his family. I hope they like me. anyways that's all i've got for now. Love you guys and miss you. Becca ps: i'm sorry if it's not long enough
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Post by Thursday on Sept 30, 2010 14:56:39 GMT -5
Dear friends, In deference to the beautiful fall weather, I escaped the comfy but constrictive confines of my dorm room to go write this letter on a sunny bench by the river. I am serenaded by the honking of geese and the purr of lawn mowers, a better letter-writing environment I couldn't think of. It being fall, it is ever closer to Thanksgiving and Christmas and therefore a welcome break from classes and a chance to see some long-lost friends. Today is the last day of September and I know we're all thinking the same thing. Damn, where did that month go? It's also getting closer to some birthdays... It's been an okay week for me. I had a couple of tests which I passed with flying colors if I do say so myself. I had to pass off a physical assessment for nursing in which I got to alternate being the patient (it was nice to get to crawl into the hospital bed, ever if I had be to poked and prodded by my classmates) and the nurse.I scored a 92 on my first government test and a 102 on my medical dosage calculation test. We had another debate in government today (thank goodness I wasn't presenting) about illegal immigration. I was frustrated because I wanted to speak up and voice my opinion but I was afraid of sounding stupid or everyone else was talking so much I couldn't get a word in edgewise, which you know pretty much sums up my life in general. You know those days when it's all you can do just to get through it? I've been having a lot of those lately. We start going to hospital next week for clinicals! I'm excited and very scared to be actually caring for patients but it's going to be a great learning experience and I'm thrilled to get to try out my impressive bed-making and medication giving skills. Tonight I will doing a community service project in which I get to make hundreds of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the soup kitchen which should be very fun and sticky. I'm very thankful the week is almost done. A very large hamper of laundry seems to be calling my name and I have a million other errands to run tommorow on my day off with a small break in between for yoga at the rec center. I highly reccomend it. It is a great way to clear your head and get energized. If I go to enough fitness classes at the rec, I get a free tee-shirt which you know is incentive enough for me.
Love, Kaitlin
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Post by Monday on Sept 30, 2010 16:31:16 GMT -5
((kaitlin, you are amazing. that is all. :-)))
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Post by Thursday on Sept 30, 2010 20:12:56 GMT -5
i try
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Post by Friday on Oct 1, 2010 14:41:03 GMT -5
Dear my Beautiful Ladies,
Well... Here we come to a wonderful Friday once more. And I couldn't be happier. I'm done with Round one of tests, and don't think I did too bad on any of them. I met an awesome new friend last night, and while I'm slight low on sleep, nap time is calling as soon as I finish this letter. As you all know by now, James and I are back together. And while this makes me super happy, I'm still slightly nervous about. I'm so scared that he is going to change his mind, and that things won't work, but I so want them to. I can't imagine living without him. I just don't know how things are going to work. So much has gone one between us, and we've had so many issues. I'm hoping that if things go south this time that at least I can find some closure and things will be better. Jordan has her friend Amanda here. And honestly... if I didn't know Amanda was a girl, I would've probably thought she was just a really pretty boy. It's kinda creepy. And besides them making sleep short last night for me, I haven't had an issue with her being here. And before y'all assume anything, the reason I got woken up last night is cuz Amanda's flight was delayed, and they didn't get back til 3, and then we had to take Jordan's brother's car back... just cut sleep down. I have a new Thursday night ritual! Rachel and Rebecca and I are going to go to the Hall, which is like a huge dance hall, every Thursday. We went last night and had a blast. I haven't lost all my dancing skills! But Rebecca invited Rachel, and Rachel invited me, and now it's going to be really great. It was pretty awesome, and if James had a problem with it, he didn't say anything so it's ok I guess. I guess that's it for now, it's definitely nap time for me! I really do think that they should reinstitute nap time in college....
All of my love, Kaylie
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Post by Monday on Oct 4, 2010 15:52:10 GMT -5
To My Secret Sisters,
Once again the weather is absolutely marvelous outside! I wish it would stay like this instead of just getting warmer again but alas; we live in Texas. Also, I've been hit with seasonal allergies like a ton of bricks. It feels like I'm going to accidently rub my nose off and I half wish that I would... But with any luck it'll pass soon and I'll be right as rain!
I've decided to participate in NaNoWriMo which means I'm very nervous/ excited for November to get here. My goal will be to write about 2,000 words a day so that I'll have a few days as cushioning in case I'm too busy to write a few days (like Thanksgiving). Like John Green, I tend to be a very slow writer so I think this will be a very good exercise for me.
Speaking of John Green, he is just so made of awesome. I have now read every book he's written/co written (at least that's been published) which include (in publication order) Looking for Alaska, An Abundance of Katherines, Paper Towns, Let it Snow co written with two other authors, and Will Grayson, Will Grayson co written with one other author. All of them are amazing in very different ways but if I had to pick a book of his with my favorite message to the reader it would be Paper Towns. It’s about how hard it is to see people for what they really are and not what we want them to be and I think that’s a very relatable topic, especially to teens. They're all great and you all need to read them! Except for Kaitlin, of course, who has already read them all... lol
Also speaking of John Green, I have a short but amusing story about him. All of you of course know that he makes videos on YouTube with his brother Hank and that the people that watch them tend to call themselves Nerdfighters (like Sara and I). Anyways, a couple of years ago John, Hank, and Hank's wife (ironically named Katherine) went on a road trip across America to visit all of the Nerdfighters. While on this made of awesome road trip, John and Katherine happened to play the cow game to pass the time.
Katherine was more or less kicking John's ass at Cow. I think he said the score was like ten thousand to one. Every time Katherine would spot one he would be like "Damn it, how are you doing that!?" Then the one time John manages to shout out cow before Katherine, in turns out to be a horse. And of course it immediately reminded me of our trip up to Fort Hood where we hilariously played the cow game, the only difference being that I mistook a goat to be a cow instead of a horse (wish you could have been there, Kaitlin, it was quite entertaining). In another video, one of the Nerdfighters asked John if he ever did find any cows. He said there was one time during the trip that, for about twenty minutes, he dominated at Cow. He said it was while Hank and Katherine were both sleeping. I could just picture in my mind John quietly, yet triumphantly, calling out cow while his competition slept.
Really, I think that's one of my favorite things about reading John's books. I get to experience them in a whole different way because not only can I picture his voice in my mind, narrating the dialogue that he actually wrote. But I can understand more about what he's trying to get his readers to experience because I know what he's like as a person, not just a writer of fictional characters.
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this nerdtastic letter and I'm sorry again about how long it is... I just can't stop talking when it comes to you guys! :-)
Love Always, Meghan
p.s. If y'all could somehow manage to give me a boy- no, a man! - for my birthday instead of a regular present that would be freaking awesome. ;-) kthnxbia!
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Post by Tuesday on Oct 5, 2010 23:27:07 GMT -5
Dear Everyone,
Tomorrow I take my first economics test, and I dread every minute it draws nearer. I've studied, but I'm not prepared if that makes sense. I blame it on the fact that I have clue how to study and I have the attention span of a squirrel. Sometimes I think and truly believe, that I'm wasting my time attempting to learn something I obviously cannot comprehend. And then I get the sense knocked back into me by a good friend. Last night I was at a low, and both suck levels and puff levels were high. Choir couldn't even lift my mood to a higher level, in fact I just wanted to leave and go to sleep. Half an hour after choir, I was sitting at my desk crying stupid tears of frustration and anger. And quite honestly I just wanted an awesome hug that would tell me "It's ok dude!" Living at home is stressing me out, and quite honestly it just makes me want to lift my hands up and say "Fuck this, I'm done!" It's sad that my idea of entertainment is looking through apartments in the Austin area, and seeing if I could afford it. I want to be a true adult, where I have to provide and live on my own, pay the bills and not have to rely on the one person you hate relying on. Today I studied with Sam, who really was quite helpful in trying to figure out how economics works. And I just ranted, and told her how much I hated myself for being put back in the position where I was under my mothers control. And Sam told me that when we first met me she could see just how much my mom had trained me to not question her authority. And that's just so sad. Being back home, has taken me back to the Sara who couldn't think for herself, who was always questioning the good and bad things. It sucks when you tell your mom you want to spend Halloween downtown on 6th street, only to be told "Don't go, you won't like it." I'll never know if I don't try it. I'm so sick of hiding in the shadow, scared of doing something wrong. But the way she said it was her assuming I wouldn't enjoy it, like she knew me enough to make that assumption. The only one who truly knows who I am, is me. I know my thoughts and feelings and I don't need someone to automatically assume who I am. So while Sam and I were talking, she said we should get an apartment these last two months, and of course I was all hell yea! But then we realized how poor we are. And then she said, "You could just move down to Victoria with me (it's ironic that it's victoria and that's my moms name.)" I laughed thinking she was being funny, except she said "I'm not joking." I told her how her family wouldn't like me. The majority of her family is racist. But she told me her grandma liked me a lot when she met me. Which I have no recollection of. But this has seriously given me something to think about. I mean by all means, I am still packed for SA, so it wouldn't be that difficult to move. But at the same time, I'd be in the country. Somewhere I've always secretly wanted to live in. But I'm from suburbia, and it's hot down there. I don't know....What do ya'll think? Should I move down there with Sam and start a whole new adventure? Or should I play it safe here in suburbia and figure things out first and foremost? It's like my brain has so many questions and thoughts right now, that I've made myself hopelessly confused about my future. Where am I going with my life? What are my goals? Will everything work out for the better?
Till next week this is Tuesday signing off.
Sara
P.S. My brother and his girlfriend....the one that was younger than all of us...INCLUDING KAITLIN.....they broke up....Keeping the smug appearance down.
((tuesday= not as awesome because of that stupid test tomorrow!!! I want Tuesdays to get better))
OH AND GO WATCH GLEE!!! IT WAS AWESOME!!
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Post by Monday on Oct 6, 2010 13:29:30 GMT -5
(( i don't think that it would be "playing it safe" to stay and try to figure out what you want to do with your future. that's the hard part, isn't it? sticking things out, trying to see something through instead of avoiding the problem. I mean, what would you do in victoria? would you go to school or get a job? i think moving in with someone else's family when you have no idea where you're headed is a bad idea. but that's just what i think, maybe it would work out for the better.))
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