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Post by Friday on Oct 22, 2006 12:56:30 GMT -5
Jake started making his social rounds and of course I was included in the antics. Jake knew everyone. No joke. And Jake was generally liked by everyone. I couldn't think of a single person that hated. Not even Heather hated Jake and Jake dumped her for me. And since everyone liked Jake and all, and I mean all, the girls in the school had a huge crush on him, I got glares for across the room. No one was going to be mean to me while I was standing with Jake besides me, but that doesn't mean that I wasn't getting jealous thoughts thrown my way. But even with the evil glares and jealous thoughts I was having a good time. After a couple of hours and a few more beers for Jake I could tell he was more than a little drunk. He was by no means wasted like some people who were pased out on the couch. It was only nine, too. Most people were more than a little tipsy. I have to say I was compeletly sober, and probably one of the only ones that was. Hunter and Jenny had dissappeared to go do whatever. I had an inkling that they had gone back to Hunter's house, but I'm not sure. Jake and I had been talkign to two junior girls when, he stood up and said," I'll be right back, I have to go to the bathroom." I nodded and turned back to the two other girls, who imeadiatly strated talking. "You are so lucky to have him as a boyfriend, he is so sweet." The shorter one, Christina I think her name was, said. "And you are so much better for him than Heather ever was. You two are such a cute couple." Rachel, the brunette siad. I blushed. I heard this stuff all the time but everytime I heard I still got warm tingly feelings. We strated talking about guys in general and who was dateable and who wasn't, when I noticed that Jake had been gone for like 30 minutes. I hadn't been paying attetion to him being gone caught up in the gossip of the older girls. I politely excused myself to go looking for my missing boyfriend.
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Post by Friday on Oct 22, 2006 22:11:58 GMT -5
Finally pushing through all the people, I stumbled into the front hall, eyes still scaning for Jake. When suddenly I didn't have to look for him anymore. Didn't want to look at him anymore. But my eyes couldn't move as they were rivited to him holding Heather in his arms, lips pressed against hers. I felt sick to my stomach, adn my head was spinning. My thoughts couldn't seem to focus on anything. Except one. I wanted to be away from here. Away from the party, the people, and the noise. But most of all I wanted to be away from Jake. To forget the image that seemed to be burned into my mind. I turned, tears already streaming down my face, and ran for the door. There was no way I was staying here a minute longer. Blinded by my tears I ran into some guy but didn't pay attention to who it was. I just pushed past him, to set on getting as far away from Jake as possible to even apologize. Getting out the door I ran into the grass and sank down to my knees. Wrapping my arms around me, I gave into the hysteria that was threatenign to overwhelm me. Jake and Heather. Heather and Jake. Why?
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Post by Friday on Oct 22, 2006 22:47:10 GMT -5
I was so lost in my turmoil of emotion I didn't notice the person that came up behind me. I probably wasn't going to notice anything through my sobs. Even though I didn;t notice them imeadiatly I did feel the hand on my shoulder and the other person kneeling down in the grass next to me. "Hey are you ok?" The person asked. I had no idea who it was. I couldn't see in the dark, and even if it was light I doubt I'd be able to see through my tears. But he had a deep voice that was soothing and seemed to resonate from his chest. All I knew in that moment was that someone and cared. They were a sympathic hand in the void of emotion I'd seem to have fallen into. "No," I blurted out not being able to control myself. The whole story seemed to rush out of my mouth, the words not able to escape fast enough. I told whoever it was I was telling this to how Jake was my boyfriend and how I loved him and when I finally got the point where he was making out with Heather, I started crying again. I couldn't help it. Then I felt arms go around me and give me what I really needed. A friendly shoulder to cry on.
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Post by Friday on Oct 24, 2006 19:54:47 GMT -5
I don't know how long I stayed like that, just being held by whoever it was that was holding me. But about the time I started to come to my sense I really took notice of how I had no idea who I had just spilled my heart out to. Pulling myslef away from him when I had finally stopped crying enough to think rationally, I wiped the tears from my etes with the back of my hand. Then I looked up into the bluest eyes I have ever seen. His hair was blonde, that was longer and had that wind blown look to it. And I knew for a fact he wasn't a weakling. Even in my distraught state I had noticed the muscles of his broad chest and arms when I had been ungraciously crying all over him. When a just ago I had plenty to say, I couldn;t seem to find the words now. Finnaly I managed an apology. "I'm really sorry, I mean...I didn't mean to be ...well...falling apart," I mumbled and a blush started to creep over my face. I was a mess. I started to climb to my feet and he was up in a flash, helping me get my footing. "Hey, it's ok," he said in that same deep soothing voice. "It looked like you needed it. By the way, I'm Landon." "Kelly, and I'm really sorry. I'm not usually like this...I don't know what came over me." I said looking down at the grass. "Well I do," he said firmly, and a strange look came into his eyes. "It isn't right for your boyfriend to do that to you. You have every right to be upset." "Thank you, for everything," I said quietly and looked back to door. I didn't want to go back inside, but I had to find my brother. He was going to take me home now. "I have to go find my brother," I said starting to excuse myself. Landon grabbed my arm and stopped me, "Well, you can come with me if you want. I can take you home or we can go do something, then you wouldn't have to worry abotu messing with your brother." And going back inside. The unspoken words seemed to hang in the air between us. Looking at him, and looking back at the door I said,"You don't mind?" "No, of course not," he flashed my a dazzaling smile," Would I have offered if I did?" I couldn't help it, I smiled back."No, I guess not."
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Post by Friday on Oct 24, 2006 21:18:53 GMT -5
He walked me to his red truck and opened the passenger door for making sure I got safely inside before going around and getting in himself. As he started up the engine and flipped on the radio he asked," So do you want to go home, or what?" Looking down at the clock on the dashboard i saw it was 10. My parents didn't expect me home til midnight. "Actually not really, I don't want to go home yet," I replied. "Ok, I wouldn't want to go home either. I would rather go do something, take my mind off things for a while. Anything special you want to do?" He asked as he pulled away from the curb he had parked along, and drove down the street. "I don't really care," I said shaking my head. He seemed to have read my mind with his last remark. Going back to a house that was probably empty was just inviting myself to dwell on everything. Not something I really wanted to do considering I'd already lost it once. "Ok in that case I know what we can do," he said and smiled at me from the driver's seat, "It's a surprise though. You'll have to wait to find out." "Ok I'll wait, so I've never seen you before, what school do you go to?" I asked trying to find out more about him. Even though technically I was still out of the dating circut that would change the next time I saw Jake. And I wasn't above noticing just how cute Landon was. "I go to Ridge Falls," he replied adn for a second I thought I saw a flash in his eyes. "Really? I go there too. I've never seen you before," I said kind of gettign excited. He was so sweet adn not to mention cute. With my luck he probably had a girlfriend. "I just started two weeks ago. I moved here from California." "Wow. I don't think I could handle making a move like that, especially in the middle of highschool. I wouldn't want to leave my friends, and have to make brand new ones." "It's not that bad," he said and shrugged. "I had reasons for not staying." I looked over at him but couldn't see his face in the dark. I wondered what had happened to make him say that. I wanted desperatly to ask, but I kept my mouth shut. "Besides," he added," I don't think you'd have a problem making friends." And from there the conversation kinda of wandered, touching on nuetral things. Each of us feeling out the other.
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Post by Kaylie on Oct 28, 2006 8:59:37 GMT -5
Part of mind drifted off toward Jake again. I felt guilt wash over me at first. Technically at least he was still my boyfriend, and I had just left with no explanation. Then my guilt was quickly replaced by anger and hurt. How could he do this to me? No I wasn't going to think about him now. I could feel the tears coming back and took a deep breath to sooth my reeling emotions. I didn't want to think about him right now. I couldn't think about him rigth now. Landon seemed to notice where my thoughts had turned and had kept silent for a little bit. At my intake of air he glanced over at me. "It's ok," he said. I hadn't even said anything. "Chances are he doesn't deserve your thoughts right now either." I looked at him and smiled. He seemed to be saying the words outloud that were echoing in my head. "How did you know I was thinking about Jake?" "Well," he said glancing over at me again," You got really quiet, and you almost started to cry again." "Oh," I could feel my self start to blush, and was thankful for the dark. "Ok we're almost there," he said suddenly and he pulled into a parking lot.
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Post by Friday on Oct 28, 2006 21:28:10 GMT -5
Landon cut the engine and we both got out. "Where are we?" I asked, looking around at the surroundings. "Well," Landon said walking towards the door of the building motioning me to follow," This is a mini-golf place." He gave me a goofy smile. "It also happens to be where one of my best friends works and I get free passes." I laughed. He held the door open for me and walked inside. It was colder inside than it was outside and I could feel goosebumps raise on my arms because of it. I rubbed them involuntarily. "Hey Landon!" A guy called from behind the counter. "Hey Chance, anyway you can hook me up with a couple of games." Landon replied leaning up against the counter. I came to stand at his elbow. "Colors?" Chance asked grabbing two clubs off the shelf and handing them to Landon. "Oh Chance this is Kelly, Kelly this is Chance." Landon said giving introductions. "Hi, and I would like pink," I said shaking his hand. "Alright pink for the lovely lady," Chance said tossing a pink ball to me and a green one to Landon. "Thanks Chance," Landon said turning and leading me out a door on the opposite side of the building. Once we were back outside, Landon handed me a club and I took it from him. "I haven't played in forever, and for the record I suck." "You can't be too bad," Landon said with a smile and a wink. "O yes I can, I suck at golf of any kind. THat is the one sport I can't play." "Everyone can play mini-golf. Besides Its all about having fun. It gets your mind off of everything." Too true. Too true.
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Post by Friday on Nov 13, 2006 20:18:52 GMT -5
We were about half way through the course when my phone rang. I glanced down at the number and I wanted to start crying again. Down on the screen lit up on the screen was Jake's name surrounded by the little red hearts I'd programmed in there forever ago. Landon saw me stop and he came over to me and took the phone out of my hands. "Just don't worry about it, you don't have to talk to him now." Without a thought he turned the ringer off and stuck the phone in his pocket. All I could do was watch him. "So do you have any brothers or sisters?" Landon asked and I could tell he was tring to change the subject. I gladly took the opportunity and started talkign about my brothers. I could talk forever about my crazy family and it gave me something else to think about. As I knew it must we finally finished the round and he kicked my butt. I don;t know by how muchbut it was a lot. I made him stop keepign count after the 2nd hole. But that game had been fun and it had taken my mind off of everything. By the end of it I had given up using the club and had reverted to using my feet instead. We got a lot of laughs out of that. We headed back inside and Chance was sittign behind the counter a old superman comic in his hands. He looked up when we came in and smiled," Have fun?" I nodded,"Ya it was great thanks." "Well Chance I'm going to get her home but I'll see you tomorrow. We're still on right?" "Of course, but Mark is wimpign out on us and no going so we will be one person short." I couldn't help myself I wanted to know what they were doing,"Whats going on?" Landopn turned to me and said,"Well Mark, Chance and I were going to go paintballing but apparently Mark wimped out on us so we will have to play a man short." "Oh, I see." "Hey why don;t you go instead. That ok with you Chance if Kelly comes?" "I don;t see why she can't," Chance said with a smile and a lifted eyebrow at Landon," Besides she's probably better than Mark." "Could I really come?" I asked excitedly. I had never paintballed before and I had always wanted to do it. "Ya sure why not?" Landon said casually. "I'd love to come!" "Ok that's settled, I'll pick you up around 8 tomorrow morning." I grinned at him. I was still upset about Jake but Landon was being nothing but nice. He was helpign me do stuff and get over him. I can't imagine ever meeting someone being this nice to me. Landon was being a good friend and right now that's really what I needed.
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Post by Friday on Nov 14, 2006 17:55:32 GMT -5
Chamce glanced up at the clock on the wall and started to stand up. Follwoing his glance I saw that it was almost 11. My mom didn't expect me home til 1. I still had another 2 hours if I wanted to use them. I knew I should probably call Jake or at least my brother and tell him where I was. Remebering that Landopn had my phone I saw that he was helping Chance close up. And then realized I didn't really want to call Jake or Blaine. If they were worried about me they could call me. Jake had already called, but at this point I didn;t want to talk to him anyways. "Hey Kelly," Landon called from the door,"Come on, lets get out of here." I looked up and walked out the door and Chance turned off the lights behind us. "Hey Landon it's my turn to pay right?" Chance asked locking the door to the building. "YA and that includes Kelly, I payed for Scott when he came." "Ok smoothies on me it is," Chance said and grinned, "I'll meet you guys there." Landon nodded and we both got back into his truck.
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Post by Friday on Jan 2, 2007 2:59:18 GMT -5
On the ride over to the smoothie shop neither one of us talked much. It wasn't an akward silence though it was comfortable. I looked over at him and saw his hair was flopped over his forhead, almost looking out of place and I felt an urge to pull at it. "Thank you," I started,"for everything. This really means a lot to me. And-" I was caught off my phone had started ringing again. Landon pulled my phone out of pocket and looked down at the number. I knew imeadiatly who it was. The ringtone gave it away. All my ringtines were the same exceot this one. The one for Jake. I knew what Landon saw flash on the screen, Jake's name surrounded by those red hearts. Just thinking of them made me want to be sick. Then LAndon did what I would never expect. He answered the phone. I heard Jake's voice across the line. "Kelly, Baby, where are you? I've tried calling but you didn't answer." "This isn't Kelly," Landon said, and his voice had taken on an edge of steel. "Well can I talk to Kelly?" "No." "Why not? And who is this?" "It doesn't matter." "Hey, look man, whoever you are, I just want to talk to my girlfriend." "I don't think Kelly wants to talk to you," Landon was still deathly calm. All I could do was sit and listen. "Why wouldn't she?" "Why don't you ask Heather?" There was silence on the other end. "O shit." And then the line went dead. Landon flipped my phone shut and put it back into his pocket. About that time we we're pulling into the parking lot and Chance was already there. LAndon got out and I just sat there thinking of the mess I was in. I didm't even notice that Landon had coem around the side of the truck until he opened the door and grabbed my arm. "COme on," he said the icey tone gone and his voice just filled with that soothingness. I let myself be pulled out and we walked inside, his hand still on my arm.
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Post by Friday on Apr 15, 2007 22:59:07 GMT -5
I let myself be pulled inside my mind in a sort of daze. What was I doing here? Why was I with Landon? Now more than ever I felt like I was betraying Jake, but he was with Heather. O, God. Heather. Jake. The feeling of anguish that had been temporairly dispelled came back in full force, and I could feel myself getting sick. I stopped dead in my tracks. I could feel the tears coming and knew that I had to stop them. Pulling my arm away from Landon I stopped and turned away from him trying to hide the tears that we're starting to fall down my face. Once Landon felt me pull away he turned to back to look at me. I wraped my arms around me and tried unsuccessfully to stop the tears that were coming down. Landon grabbed me and spun me around so I was facing him, forcing my face up to meet his eyes he said, "Kelly, that asshole isn't worth this. You deserve better than him and he's no better than any other cheating scum bag." "But," I stammered as I tired to from a reply. "No buts, Kelly. You know you are better than him. Now for now forget about him. You don;t need him, and all he is doing right now is bringing you pain, so forget it." Reaching up a hand he wiped the tears off my cheeks. "Now, Chance is waiting inside, and it's not everyday he offer to pay. So we'll take him up on his offer and go from there. What do you say?" I couldn't help but smile and give a little laugh at that. So I nodded and started to walk inside with Landon.
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Post by Friday on Apr 29, 2007 0:06:37 GMT -5
We got inside and Chance was leaning on the counter flirting shamelessly with the girl working there. She smiled at him in a familair way then turned when she heard the bell above the door ring. She smiled and waved at Landon, "Hey," she called then turned back to Chance. Landon waved in reply and said to me," That's Chance's girlfriend, Destiny." I nodded in understanding. Then it struck me as kind of ironic that their names were Chance and Destiny and they were a couple. Landon led me to one of the few table set up in the smoothie shop, and then pulled up 2 more chairs adding to the 2 already there. Landon pulled out a chair for me, and after I sat down took a seat next to me for himself. Chance took the seat on Landon's other side carrying 2 drinks and I was about to ask why there was another chair when Destiny walked up carrying the other two drinks. Destiny looked at Landon and asked, "This you knew girl?" "Nah, not yet," Landon replied then smiled and winked at me. I just shook my head. Destiny extended her hand to me and said, "I'm Destiny, if you didn't already know. What's your name?" "Kelly," I replied shaking her hand. "Well nice to meet you, and if he does asks you out," she started smiling mischeviously at Landon," He's a good kid." We all just laughed. Looking around I was surprised. This was not my usual group of people to hang out with. Not the jocks, they I had come to hang out with when I was with Jake, or my group of close friends I'd had from middle school. And I was actually enjoying myself.
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Post by Friday on Apr 30, 2007 13:56:04 GMT -5
And It's not that I don't enjoy myself with Roxy and Jenny and them, i just don't usually enjoy myself without them. Yes I was popular, but only by association. Jake had been my key to poualrity and everything else that came with it. He had opened the way for me into that circle. But obviously that was gone. What was going to happen now? Who would I spend my lunch with? What would I do on friday nights? What- "Kelly, you can have this one," Destiny said giving me a smoothie. I blinked startled out of my thoughts then took it from her with a smile. "Thanks," I replied. "What kind is it?" This time it was Landon that answered, "Strawberry-Banana. I should've asked what you wanted. It's just waht we all get though. I'm sorry. Will it be ok?" I laughed at his stumbled apology and noticed that I wasn't the only one laughing. Cahnce and Destiny were both sniggering behind their hands,"That's perfect. It's my favorite kind anyways." "Oh," he siad then brightened considerably," That's good." Then Destiny interjected, "So ya'll still going paintballing tomorrow?" "Actually we are," Landon replied," even if Mark isn't going with us." "Chicken," Chance coughed. Everyone ignored him. "Who's is your third going to be then?" Destiny asked with curiousity. "Kelly is," Landon said with a nod to me. I could feel my cheeks turn red, as everyone turned to look at me. "You are a brave soul," Destiny said solemnly with a twinkle in her eye. I now wondered just what I had gotten into saying yes to Landon.
We sat and talked until it was time to get me home, and I was kinda regretting I had to leave. Landon, Chance, and Destiny had the makings of being good friends. I said my goodbyes to Destiny and Chance and Landon and I went back to his truck to take me home.
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Post by Friday on May 7, 2007 12:11:28 GMT -5
IT was only a fifteen minute drive to my house and i wished it would have been longer. I could already feel the depression that had been momentarily staved off by the company of people, who were fast becoming friends. I could feel the hurt seeping in. When he pulled up in my driveway Landon cut off the engine and sat there for a moment. "Kelly, I'm sorry about Jake. I can tell you loved him. But if he did that to you, drunk or not, he doesn't deserve you or any girl. I know it's not going to be easy. But you can't let it get to you."
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Post by Friday on May 27, 2007 18:25:31 GMT -5
I just sat there in silence and said nothing, thoughts still spinning in my head. Finally I said the only thing I could," Thank you." Landon nodded. And I knew he realized that I didn't want to talk about it but that he had said enough. I started to get out of his truck but he stopped me, "WHat time do I need to pick you up tomorrow? You know, to go paintballing with us." I smiled slightly," Anytime is fine," I replied. "Ok how about around 8? That way we can run and get breakfast before hand." "Sounds like a plan." I was about to shut the door when Landon reached into his pocket," Here you go," he said, " Almost forgot." He handed me my phone and smiled. "See you in the morning." He waited in the driveway until I got inside and through the window I saw his headlights disappear down the street. My parents were already asleep in their room and Josh was asleep on the couch the Menu for the DVD he had been watching was replaying on the TV. I picked up the remote and turned it off before heading upstairs to my room. I took off my skirt and blue halter top, and threw on a sports bra and pajama bottoms. Laying in my bed I looked up at the ceiling and tried not to think about Jake. But it happened anyways. The whole night seemed almost as if it hadn't happened. Him making out with Heather had been all a dream. But deep down I knew it wasn't. I didn't cry again, at this point I was almost detatched to the point of no feeling. And as I slowly drifted off to sleep Landon was the last thought that lingered in my dreams.
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